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-mR. eLeCTriC oCeAn.*

__'shut the fuck up, bitch. *my name is LAUREN.

x.the clouds will part and the sky will crack open and god himself will reach his fucking arm through just to push you down..juju-just to hold you down.x

<3the thing is, i'm not worth the sorrow..and if you'd come and meet me tomorrow, i'd hold you down-fold you in, deep..deep..deep in the fiction we live.<3

| i am |:
| 18..wishing i was 15 | different | unique | leader | obsessive | pro-gay | lied too | creative | dreamer | wild | awkward | orginal | fanatic | a star | writer | musician | lover | quiet | contradicting | jealous | artist | confused | messy | false | pierced | loved | unloved | silly | random |

sometimes i just want to die.

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling....
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon

And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this-

fucking wreck
-That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said-

"Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold

_Nobody cried when they saw your floating body. The blood in the water spelled out your name. It spelled out death._