x.the clouds will part and the sky will crack open and god himself will reach his fucking arm through just to push you down..juju-just to hold you down.x
<3the thing is, i'm not worth the sorrow..and if you'd come and meet me tomorrow, i'd hold you down-fold you in, deep..deep..deep in the fiction we live.<3
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sometimes i just want to die.
It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen That I bought those pills I thought I would need And I wrote a letter to my family Said it's not your fault And you've been good to me Just lately I've been feeling.... E/> Like I don't belong Like the ground's not mine to walk upon E/> And I've heard that music Echo through the house Where my grandmother drank By herself And I sat watching a flower As it was withering I was embarrassed by its honesty So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face Not this-
fucking wreck -That's taken its place
So please forgive what I have done No you can't stay mad at the setting sun Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually There is nothing left to do but sleep
But spring came bearing sunlight Those persuasive rays So I gave myself a few more days My salvation it came, quite suddenly When Justin spoke very plainly He said-
"Of course it's your decision, But just so you know, If you decide to leave, Soon I will follow"
I wrote this for a baby Who has yet to be born My brother's first child I hope that womb's not too warm Cause it's cold out here And it'll be quite a shock To breathe this air To discover loss So I'd like to make some changes Before you arive So when your new eyes meet mine They won't see no lies Just love. Just love.
I will be pure No, no, I know i will be pure Like snow, like gold
_Nobody cried when they saw your floating body. The blood in the water spelled out your name. It spelled out death._